:::2003-09-24-8:43 p.m.:::
I'm thinking *again* of joining another blog site.
I'm so flighty.
There. Even before, I love putting Scribbles in my site titles. BAKIT NGAYON LANG NAGPAKITA SA AKIN ANG PROVIDER NA ITOH?!
What Ragnarok Character Should You Be?
Quiz by Angelhalo
I miss playing. Aaargh.
:::2003-09-23-9:10 p.m.::: "Everyday was fun, and I always thought I was happy. But ever so often, there was a fleeting voice... 'Are you really having fun?' it said. That was inside me... almost like ice that never melted. But the days passed by. The same quiet, peaceful days. Why is it? I felt like something was wrong. I felt that this tranquility was somehow artificial. Surrounded by classmates, laughing, there were times when I suddenly felt everyone was far away. On those days I felt afraid. Because I thought I might not actually be feeling anything. Even when I was laughing or having fun with my friends, it felt like it all might be just brushing off the surface of my heart, and nothing was really reaching the inside of my heart. There was an indelible suspicion in my heart that I'm always alone. That there wasn't anyone I could actually call a friend. I'm actually always alone. That uncertainty was always within me. Why do I come to think like that? I'm blessed by many more things than other people. But the days flowed past. The same quiet, peaceful days that felt like there was nothing there at all..." ---Souichirou Arima, Kareshi Kanojyo no Jijyo Episode 8.5 Got this from my other blog...
:::2003-09-22-7:32 p.m.::: I was supposed to post something in continuation with the post below, but I can't bring myself to do it. I can't move. I feel helpless. Aargh. Every once in a while I get this feeling of solitude. Not the good solitude, but the one that says, "YOU'RE ALONE. YOU'RE ALL ALONE, YOU FREAK." Damn it. Updates: I have a copy of Sky Over Dimas by Groyon, and I'm enjoying it. I've been racking my brain for coher ence in story concepts. I'm reading a philosophy essay that somehow managed to become an essay about physics. We have a graded recitation in Artapre, about some 28-page essay entitled "Pamana, Pahiwatig, at Pangakong Ihinabi, Inukit, at Ipininta" by Alice C. Guillermo. It basically talks about the characteristics of Filipino thinking through the different eras in the Philippines. *** Just finished talking to someone on the phone. He didn't call for about three days. Suddenly, he said to me, "Alam mo, naisip ko rin yun. Sabi ko, "Baka isipin ni Yot nakalimutan ko na siya, dahil may *********** na ako. Pero maiintindihan naman niya yun..."" No, he doesn't like me more than a friend. Somehow, that made my day.
:::2003-09-21-7:33 p.m.::: At siyempre hindi na ako nakapagblog ulet. Hay. Went to DLSU yesterday at 9:00. Someone was supposed to fetch me at 1:00, but I ended up in the library until 4:00. I was bored. And hungry. I didn't eat. I couldn't eat. I only had 15 pesos in my pocket. At least the goddess of eternal wrath had piattos and m&m's. I snacked on those. And then spent four hours of bored solitude in the library [the chapel was closed] reading Jessica Zafra. She had an article about Titanic. She was saying that Titanic was a rip-off from the cheesy movies of Pinoys. I found myself unsuccessfully trying to control my laughter. I failed miserably.
:::2003-09-20-5:41 a.m.::: Woke up at 5:00 am today, slept last night at 7:00 pm. Wala pa palang local channels nang ganung oras, kala ko nagdeclare ng martial law. Hah. Antok pa ko. psst. pahiram ng spongecola na EP. DLSU 'won' over UE last Thursday. UE filed a protest, saying Cabatu still had the ball when the buzzer sounded. Well. I suggest you play again. :D La na ako masabi. Will blog again later tonight.